I don’t feel well anymore

November 22, 2007

I feel so… Off.

I don't know how to describe it. Its like I'm nervous, I can feel this funny feeling in my stomach, funny yet makes me uncomfortable. Its similar to anxiety and paranoia, although there's something different to it. Its a mix of every emotion I guess.

 

Its as if I can explode.

 

I don't feel like a kid anymore. I cook, I clean, I study, I do almost everything in this house but pay the bills.

 

During our time in the Computer Room during Lunch Break, we had an activity, where there was a paper on our backs with 2 columns, then we would write positive and negative things about each other. It was fun, yet I wanted more negative comments  

Its quarter to 9, and you're not home. Where are you? Yo u have my phone. I need white gulaman bars dammit. I'm making you go to the market early tomorrow and buy it for me.

 I need something or someone that will make me happy. The thing is, I don't know what. I know what makes me sad or mad though, so, I need the opposite?

There's just something about Fridays that I dread. I don't like Fridays. I wanna go to sleep. I wanna rest already. The mere fact of being in a place, where mixed noises are made. there are 4 walls around you, dirt on the floor, laughing, screaming, whispering, crying, shouting people. I've gone mental.

 

 

another NoBreakfast

Yeah, no breakfast again. I wake up, my mum is still in bed, I head over to the living room and watch the news to see any news on no classes today because of the typhoon Mina. I took a bath, looked again, says there is school but chances are there are no classes tomorrow. I was hoping for no classes today, but oh well. I gotta get ready for dramatization, a quiz in bio, and a quiz in math. So help me God.

 

I'm eating left over mash potato that I ordered last night from KFC. It's far from Finger Lickin Good. 

Ouch. Now my stomach doesn't feel good. Uh oh. Throw it up! Throw it up! Yeah, I wanna throw up, really bad.