Setting this place up again

YEah, I’m setting it up, to document my life here at boarding school and denmark so far. MY HOMEPAGE. Bwaha. Danish Cookies. Yumm.

Gimme some time to get it all started up. 

Simself shit.

This is just for me. stoopid linux.

 Eyes:

http://modthesims2.com/showthread.php?t=256434

Hair:

http://modthesims2.com/showthread.php?t=243230

http://modthesims2.com/showthread.php?t=257163 

Clothing:

http://modthesims2.com/showthread.php?t=25ccc3923

http://modthesims2.com/showthread.php?t=246570

http://modthesims2.com/showthread.php?t=264161

http://modthesims2.com/showthread.php?t=247834

http://modthesims2.com/showthread.php?t=264541

skin:

http://modthesims2.com/showthread.php?t=215238

Update.Update.Update.

Oh Yeah.

So, last week was fun. Had lab activity in Bio, which was okay, then we celebrated Mrs. Fecundo [my adviser]'s birthday, we had cake, and much fun.

 I was supposed to go Mass Feeding on the weekend, but I bailed because I felt that I would break down over there. So, mum took me shopping. a bunch of blank DVDs, new speakers, lots of shirts and a pair of shoes.

Went home, rested, then I dressed up for some Hot Chocolate. I went down, turns out my mum had somewhere to go, so she dropped me off in Gateway, I ordered a Venti Signature Hot Chocolate at Starbucks, and watched a movie.

 Then we went home together.

Sunday, I went to this huge mass over at Luneta, where they paraded  statues of the Virgin Mary. That was nice, although I got drizzled by rain.

 Monday, I woke up, with energy, but the day was dark, sadly. I felt pain in my throat when I drank water or any other drink that day. I went around Greenhills after school with Jessica, which was fun, since we thought GH was bombed :O But then, we realized there was just this big parade outside.

Went home, and had nothing for dinner, other than the spaghetti I bought when I was still in GH. I asked my mum to buy strepsils for me to heal my soar throat.

Today, I woke up, without any energy, from watching National Geographic's My Brilliant Brain the last night. I realized a lot about my sister's intentions with her son every time she would ask me to accompany him at extra-curricular activities, and I felt guilty.

Well, I felt so hot, even  with air conditioning, and I had no blanket over my body. I could feel my neck sweat.

yeah, so my mum made me stay home, to make sure. Breakfast was not a choice for me, I felt like I was suffocating, my throat too small or something. That eventually cleared up after a few more hours of sleep.

I realized that it was my mum's birthday, so I greeted her. I had big plans for today, I was going to buy a cake and flowers and everything, since its her big 5-0. She doesn't seem to care though, since we can't celebrate. So, I overdosed myself today with the medicine, [literally, so far no side-effects] but my throat feels alot better, and I can eat, although I still get that feeling of throwing it up after, the same one I've had for a long time now.

 I plant to take an entrance exam in Denmark, just to be sure. I just want more choices.

I'm living alone anyway, so its better to live alone somewhere safer right? It won't make much of a big difference, although I have more access to places. Ooohyeah. Although I dunno where I will live. Haha.

BILL KAULITZ is a guy from a band that I feel so different about. I love him in a different way. I just wanna meet him. Oh yeah, and I wanna learn german more than ever now. Although I always tend to use my danish accent in it, so I always have this sort of like "r" in it, instead of "sh" and "ch" and "hs" and such. Oh, and he's my header image.

Christmas Wishlist

Ehh. I'm not in the Christmas Mood/Spirit and such. But still. I think I'll have a good time with my Danish family this year. I can actually feel like I belong in a FAMILY!

 I just hope my family happen to stumble upon this post

iPod 160GB

  I regret gettting my second gen. Nano, since it has no video, and I'm a movie buff.

 Kashmir: Zitilites

  My fave Danish band ever.

 Mew Albums

 Mew, my second fave Dane band ever.

Tokio Hotel: Scream 

 I love this band! I fell in love with them on the EMAs. They are German, and even their german songs are awesome, even if I only understand a few parts. Although, I thought the lead singer was a girl -_- Eh, his hair and eyes were the ones that made me think that he was a she. Then the tight pants and shirt made me think. I searched them on Limewire (hehe.) and I got 1000 Mere, and thought "okay, its a girl." then I got "Monsoon" the first verse didn't change my mind -then came the chorus. And I actually said "OMG. He's a guy!"

Oh yeah. that's all I can think of really now.

"And when I loose myself I think of you."

-Monsoon; Tokio Hotel.

 

 I wish we go to Sweden when I come. In a way, I wanna go on my own, to Denmark I mean. Without mum. >:) But I think Mum would allow that. There's sorta a part of her that doesn't wanna go.

I can't wait to go shopping -_- most of my clothes don't fit anymore. The only ones that do are my recently bought capri pants, the clothes that were loose for me before and… my huge shirts. Well, they are ment to be huge anyway. I need to loose weight. Although I did really grow bigger, taller, wider and such. Eww. I need to go back to my organic diet. But its like impossible with school. I need more energy than that. I don't always have access to an apple you know. -_-

Gnawing on a knife

LITERALLY.

Yes, That is what I am doing now, as of 9.05pn, and I have been doing so for a while now. I dunno, it just feels good to the teeth, it doesn't hurt, because it isn't that sharp. I haven't updated for a week. Sorry for that.

Well, I was absent from School on Monday, exhausted and tired from the day before, and plus, -I didn't get a good night's sleep. I came to school, learning I didn't miss alot, but a lab activity, which made me exempted from submitting the lab paper. Yehay? Urgh. 

 We found out that Pau [Pauline Diano, First Year Section E, Pep Squad Choreo] had died -_- because of dengue.  Such a big loss. Then the day after, Jamille [Baltazar was his last name.. well, I think it is.] He got paralyzed then lost his life on Wednesday at 3pm.

I had rainbow catering on Thursday. Happy Birthday Ryhanna Bianca [sorry if its wrong or whatever]. She was sweet, quiet, but sweet. We made spaghetti and hot dogs. I arrived at the kitchen late, I was at the Computer Room, kris kringle thing. Me and Adrian had nothing to do, so we just roamed around the kitchen, and watched Cheskee decorate the cake for Mrs. Duran.

Eventually, me and Adrian had a job to do- CLEAN.  He bailed, but then Ms. Ngitngit assigned Jemmel to do dish washing aswell, he *accidentally* poured some water down my shirt, so I soaked his sleeves. >:) Christell was the mascot, she was Princess Jasmine. Her tummy showed. :)) Sexy ni Christell! When we headed down to Grade 1-E, me and Adrian realized there was only 5 of us there, 6 including Ms. Ngitngit. It was tough, but we managed. Christell lost her chucks. I had a rough encounter with spelling the kids' names! There was a Jullia [yes, double L!] Shenelle [she said Chanel -_-] and a lot more names that were unusual to me. I had to constantly bring kids down from the tables and chairs, help them with their juice, and pack away their food.

While still cleaning up and such, Jemmel fell in love with Dominique =)) yeah, we all had fun.

I went back up to no teacher, so I just made kwento to Jessica, since she handled the same class before. Grabe, we were all tense during evaluation, Angelo conducted it, gave out the morals in the problems, which mostly targeted Lee. Angelo played around with the gavel, while Lee's back was turned, Gelo would pretend to hit him, and eventually, it slipped out of his hand! But, it didn't hit Lee, it hit his seatmate, Kat. Gelo immediately hugged Kat, said sorry, and tried to let the pain away. While he was doing that, Lee got up, obviously mad, and went to the other side of the table, and put his hand around Angelo, murmured some words, then got the scissors on Tonette's table, and held it to his throat. Only 2 seconds of their murmuring went by until Kayne and Kat got up. Kayne went to Lee, holding his wrists, they were at my side, and I could see into both their eyes, at this point, Kat was with Angelo, trying to calm him down. I couldn't hear what Kayne was saying, but I tried to get a hold of the scissors, still in Lee's hand, afraid it might puncture any of them if one of them would push. Kayne backed Lee to the wall, said some words, and handed the scissors to me. After around two minutes, Tonette searched for her scissors, which made me laugh, since it was as if she didn't know a thing!

It didn’t make me happy.

Well, I'm still on a quest to see what will make me happy. Since I haven't felt happy in a long time now.

The computer upgrade didn't make me happy for long, since the driver that the store gave me didn't work, which I will return tomorrow.

I didn't go to school today, since last night, I felt terrible, and went to sleep with my hair wet too. I was exhausted. I built a computer [okay, I just helped but still], walked 3km without stopping, and frantically searched for a video card, which I didn't get. I haven't eaten right since Friday, I don't eat any food, and when I do, I feel like I can throw it up any moment, which I almost did. 

"I'm hungry, but I don't know what to eat" and "When I eat, I wanna puke it."

 I barely slept last night, with my mum's snoring, so I kept twisting and turning, when my alarm clock buzzed, I moved to the sofa, and passed by a mirror, seeing my eye bags  much deeper than they really are, my eyes were red too, so I decided to sleep.

Tomorrow, I'll go to school. Right now, I'm just waiting for someone to go online so I could ask what the homeworks are. 

The Upgrade

I'll get an upgrade tomorrow, FOR SURE!

 Mum is okay with the price. The technician that upgraded my computer like 2 years ago will upgrade it again, I forgot his name though. He'll be here at 9am. Woah, then he'll check out the computer and we'll head to VirraMall in Greenhills to buy the crap by 10.30, since that is when they open.

Western Digital 160GB 7200RPM                         P 2,340.00  

Inno3D Geforce 6600LE 128mb DDR 64bit        P 3,590.00

Asus DRW-1814BL 18X Lightscribe                       P 1,770.00

PQI 1GB PC400 DDR                                                   P 2,180.00

                                                                                        __________

                                                                                            P 9880.00

John’s Birthday

I went to the pool a little before 6pm today, and no one was there, and it was dark and creepy, so I went back up. My mum told me that they were there, and with nothing to do anyway really, I went, although I had already taken a bath before I found out they were there, and i was squeaky clean in my shorts and shirt. So, I went there, just hoping to put my feet in the water, and enjoy the atmosphere. Eventually, I got pushed in by Revo, which I pulled along with me.

The people that were there were more of acquaintances, and some were schoolmates who lived in the building aswell. My batchmates [well, the boys, who I got to hang out longer with] were surprised there were so many of us Montessorians here in the building.

The party was not what I expected it to be, but since there were boys and older people anyway, it was expected. Uh, I won't tell it exactly, just do the math and you'll get the answer.

For around an hour, after we swam, some were sleepy, as they did some dirty deeds in front of me, not really affecting me since I was used to such a thing, I decided to just play it safe, since my mum was just downstairs.

It was fun anyway, although I didn't really get as comfortable as I am with my own group of friends or my cousins, but I still had fun, listening and laughing along to all the jokes and stories and gossip they had to say. I also payed attention to the little things, like Ate Mary Fe's dog, Rodney, and other stuff that I shouldn't really share.

Eventually, we all went to different units, and I was supposed to go to KTV with the others, although I didn't have a ride home and money. Instead, I stayed here, and bonded with Ate Hazel, which was much fun, since its great to have someone else to confide in. Yeah, I really liked this day, good thing I didn't miss out on the pool thing.

I don’t feel well anymore

I feel so… Off.

I don't know how to describe it. Its like I'm nervous, I can feel this funny feeling in my stomach, funny yet makes me uncomfortable. Its similar to anxiety and paranoia, although there's something different to it. Its a mix of every emotion I guess.

Its as if I can explode.

I don't feel like a kid anymore. I cook, I clean, I study, I do almost everything in this house but pay the bills.

During our time in the Computer Room during Lunch Break, we had an activity, where there was a paper on our backs with 2 columns, then we would write positive and negative things about each other. It was fun, yet I wanted more negative comments  

Its quarter to 9, and you're not home. Where are you? Yo u have my phone. I need white gulaman bars dammit. I'm making you go to the market early tomorrow and buy it for me.

 I need something or someone that will make me happy. The thing is, I don't know what. I know what makes me sad or mad though, so, I need the opposite?

There's just something about Fridays that I dread. I don't like Fridays. I wanna go to sleep. I wanna rest already. The mere fact of being in a place, where mixed noises are made. there are 4 walls around you, dirt on the floor, laughing, screaming, whispering, crying, shouting people. I've gone mental.

another NoBreakfast

Yeah, no breakfast again. I wake up, my mum is still in bed, I head over to the living room and watch the news to see any news on no classes today because of the typhoon Mina. I took a bath, looked again, says there is school but chances are there are no classes tomorrow. I was hoping for no classes today, but oh well. I gotta get ready for dramatization, a quiz in bio, and a quiz in math. So help me God.

I'm eating left over mash potato that I ordered last night from KFC. It's far from Finger Lickin Good. 

Ouch. Now my stomach doesn't feel good. Uh oh. Throw it up! Throw it up! Yeah, I wanna throw up, really bad.